i feel so crap.this week was like whatever man.fuck off. other than the ocip presentation of which i was really glad it went well,the comment mr koh made really made it all worth while.i mean,its for him.sad to see him leave,but its for greener pastures.he's gonna do volunteer work in thailand.so cool right.really admire him. anyway, loads of stuff happened this week.i just feel so...tired.im sick and tired of YOU bitch.im tired from trainings.im sick of initiating stuff.im sick and tired of watching my every move just so it'll all be peaceful.im tired of looking at masks.im sick of pretence.a whole long list more.ben says to not bother and ignore,but really,who can.

can u just fucking stop pretending.and start being real.GOSH.grow up man.its not longer lala land.haha.im not daft.im just not reacting to you.if u think im really oblivious to everything's around haha.go knock ur head on the wall.im blur yeah,sometimes.ok well most,but when it comes to body language and emotions,try me.i wont say i can read everyone like a book.but i've been thru quite a few incidents to know how people think,how humans work.yeah im just 18,but so what.fuck it.i have a more mature mind than you.you think im a bitch? go ahead,bitch.

on another note,giammy,i miss sac.thou there's bitching too(you can never escape bitching),its more family than this crap.there's only a group of people i can really relate to.thank god for them.

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